Hmmm, thoughtful pause

[itsallovernow]

I'm trying to take things in stride. For instance, my car is leaking vast quantities of coolant, which means I have to take it to frelling Reseda to have it looked at, and will have to rent a car. And when they morons at the service center transferred me three times to the wrong people, I didn't even yell, just held my head in my hands.

I've also finally accepted a long term situation between myself and G. And discovered sadly that I was right a year ago when I told him to find a nice girl who would appreciate him. That I've been more upset about losing the adoration than losing him. I'm not proud of myself, but I feel clear now, and honest.

I was partnered with a very short, very aggressive girl at Krav Maga yesterday. And my neck hurts like a sonofabitch from doing knees. She held my neck down - as instructed, but she was almost a foot shorter than me and it was painful. Should you ever feel the need to attack me, I can honestly say that I'm unlikely to knee you. But I will kick you. I promise.

I didn't write, although I'm going back and forth with my plot points, disgusted by the clumsiness of my last section. However, I still believe there will be surprises forthcoming. I may need a sounding board later in the week, if anyone is willing to help.

I get absurdly excited every time rubberneck posts a new section. It makes me not want to read anything else if it won't measure up to her scenettes. I get stubborn about fic - wanting it all to be good, not just readable. And so far, I've been cruising on the WIPs lately. Even uncompleted, most of them answer what I want from fic far better than a lot of what's been on Kansas lately.

And I did remember to tape and watch Alias last night. Sidney cried five times and once in the field. Ack. But she kicked ass beautifully in the opening (I got a true thrill out of her kicking Vaughn's ass, and Jack's comments about his unworthiness). And she blew up the car, which was incredibly cool. And she yelled at Vaughn. Since I'm not shipping for anyone but Jack and Irina, I could watch it with bouncy pleased surprsie. I think Michael Vartan's a cutie, tiny head or not. But Vaughn is not real exciting. Jack's exciting. And there better be more Jack commiting atrocities this season. MMMM. Bad Jack. And I do love Marshall. He's such a big geek. Clearly, I'm not watching this for the plot. I hope that the more aggressive Sidney is here to stay (which can only help the crying thing) and I hope she did equally bad things on her summer vacation, even if she can't remember what they are.

Oh, and I'm not going to vote for Arnold. That should be abundantly clear, but I like saying it outloud, and am amused that Bustamonte's ads, which are total campaign ads, have tiny "Vote No on the Recall" things in the upper right hand corner.

Comments

[scapersuse.livejournal.com]

Victor Garber is awesome. I hope we see more of *his* summer vacation as well.

As for the crying, it also kind of weakens Sydney (I want to say de-strengthens her - seems more fitting, but possibly redundant), if she's on the verge of tears all the time. There has to be other ways of showing her emotions.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Exactly!! There are other ways to show her vulnerability, and the extent to which her emotions and personal connections drive her without having her constantly cry.