pushing up the hill like sisyphus

[itsallovernow]

Started the day off fighting with M. I take responsibility for his actions in spite of myself, in spite of knowing better, and I just end up... defeated. (It isn't my fault he hasn't renewed his driver's license yet. It isn't my fault that he can't find the confirmation number. He can be angry with me all he wants, but none of that is my fault. Why I feel bad, I don't know. Or, I do know, and I choose to ignore that aspect of my personality).

Fact is, my relationship with M. more often than not makes me look weak, like an idiot, like someone who knows better and keeps going back for more.

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The Frames opened for Bob Dylan in Australia and New Zealand. Considering that is approximately 80 bazillion miles away, I should not feel like I'm missing something for not seeing it. (And possibly, my head and heart would have exploded in sheer glee, and that would have been gross.)

The fact that The Frames show here is sold out already (I mean whoo hoo to them because Once is still generating buzz and they're making money and deserve wide recognition and success), but man... I love them. And I've never been to the Fonda, and well. Dammit. I loved them first! (I didn't actually, many other people did, but I'm feeling indignant. Let me enjoy that:)

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It says something about my job (and my staff) that I'm betting my art director (again) on whether or not the letter from the editor will come in at blueline. Last time I won that dollar. I will not be defeated this month!
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I will be putting out a call for submissions for the rite and ritual anthology. I just have to frame it correctly (and figure out when the FUCK I'm going to fit that kind of project into my schedule.)

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TV shows of glee: Entourage continues to be the boyest of boy fantasies (and seriously the gayest thing on TV. Y'all who aren't watching it? Y'all who love slash? You are so, so missing out.)

And last week's Burn Notice, while not my favorite ep of the season, had a perfect, ficcish moment at the end which worked beautifully.

Comments

[electricland.livejournal.com]

Why I feel bad, I don't know.

Like so many of us, you probably have an overdeveloped sense of guilt, and a feeling that dammit, you should be able to control the universe. However, this is a fallacy. You are responsible for your stuff, not M's. You're not his mother or his wife. He's an adult. Very possibly he needs a better system for dealing with those grown-up aspects of life, but that system is not you. *hugs*

It's hard to let go of that damn sense of guilt though.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

The sense of guilt, and the sense that I don't want him mad at me, for whatever reason.

Stupid boy. Stupid me.

[electricland.livejournal.com]

Hmmmph. *takes up cudgels in Thea's defence* This makes me want to give him a metaphorical clip round the earhole (it would be a literal one, but we're not in the same time zone).

A moderately effective system for managing paperwork, such as a box in which to put important papers when they come through the door and a calendar on which to write important dates, would be of immense value to him and also very helpful for maintaining domestic harmony. How old is he again? It ISN'T your fault and he certainly doesn't get to be mad at you. And I will phone him up and tell him these things if someone will give me the number, so there.

Hmmmph.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

I buy into it. (And I feel guilty that I could have thrown it away if it had fallen into the newspapers). It is as much my fault as his, and that's what pisses me off, proving I at least have some sanity left:)

[electricland.livejournal.com]

Oh, and you're not stupid. Can't vouch for him, haven't met him.

Hmmmph.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Oh, I can be plenty stupid:)

[rubberneck.livejournal.com]

You're not his mother or his wife. He's an adult.

And adults don't consider their wives to be their mommies, either. /quibble

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Adults certainly don't:)

[electricland.livejournal.com]

Very true. I should of course have said "or his secretary, who is paid a small fortune to take care of these mundane details."

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Hee - dude, I am soooo none of those things:)

[electricland.livejournal.com]

EXACTLY. :D

I could use a highly-paid executive secretary, assuming someone else was providing the funds. I wonder if you can hire 'em by the day? /wistful speculation

[raithen.livejournal.com]

my Mom repeatedly tells Dad that if he isn't in the office regular numbers of days a week, he needs to bring his EA home with him, because she doesn't want that job ;)

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Hee:)