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Dec. 16th, 2004 10:21 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
itsallovernowI go home to Colorado on Saturday night. Which is good. But it's 10 days without my own agenda, and it can be maddening. My dad seems to have his thumb glued to the re-dial button, calling me constantly and I've been so damned impatient with him. Makes me want to cry for both of us. I'm too tired to be nice, to petulant to be kind to him because I want him to be the same. To understand that he's calling to often, and the reality is that he's bored and lonely and not the same, not whole, not independent and I hate that. I want to rail against how unfair things are, that he's stuck like this, and instead, I just rail at him for doing the things that have always made me crazy.
I'm cranky, PMSy, annoyed with the meds, annoyed with my body and longing to be back on the pill, tapping my watch waiting for my ovaries to go to work. Grrr. I know it's that, at least I hope so, not normally this much of an emotional rollercoaster, feelings hurt so easily by things that aren't slights, aren't anything.
Treated myself last night, needing to feel pretty again, and got my hair cut. Since my last hair adventure involved giving myself PK hair, I thought I'd stick with the Farscape theme and use Claudia Black as a model. I loved the bangs and the sleek '40's glamour of her haircut in Burbank, and I wanted something that would force me to wear my hair down, so I had my hairdresser give me sexy bangs. (Probably it looks a little more like Jennifer Aniston when she had the bangs and the wavy hair, but since it made me feel like Claudia Black, it all worked out in the end:) Hee, I'm never going to look like her, have that poise and those legs, but I can still have a damned sexy haircut. Which would be sexier if I could keep myself from brushing the bangs out of my eyes, but I think that's a hazard of the job.
I'm in the stage with the Sex Gone Wrong where it's all I can think of. Situations and dialogue and part of me realizes the absurdity of this level of effort for this kind of piece, but maybe it's a precursor. The dialogue is shaping itself, scenes and situations shaping and forming and I get that oh, god yes and want my fingers at the keys a pen in my hand because I see how it unfolds, can't write fast enough to get it on the page. Consumed because it is shaping, being shaped, and I sit back, breathless and giggling that I'm getting this from an experiment in making sex not work right, and watching it evolve. Thinking, okay, if she goes down on him here, will that work, is that appropriate to the scene. If they kiss, does it make things softer, does it make them more than friends with a new thing to do, a challenge on both sides? Snort.
And, I got the unexpected luxury of going home last night to the apartment and watching TV by myself. M. has joined a theater company and is gainfully employed and so I took my salad and my Bicyclette Syrah and watched West Wing and Law and Order SVU/Food Network and then West Wing again.
I, well, I haven't watched all season so I was a little lost, but I was sort of awed by this episode. Bartlett is so Bartlett weakened and determined and cranky, and Josh is obviously going on a quest. CJ is competent and careful and there was something amazing, and very FDRish about Curtis picking up the President and carrying him down the stairs to the car. They haven't done much with the aftereffects of the MS, and I think the challenges of a President physically hampered and mentally sound are ones that they could make good use of. Bartlett's breakdown in the bathroom, angry and wracked and doubting just killed me. And god help me, Margaret and Carol making a list of who gets to go in the bunker and including the UPS man made me giggle, especially Josh and Will trying to act like they'd be useful after an apocolypse.
I was so pleased for Donna that she quit, and even though I knew how they'd play that out, knew there'd be a temp there, I still liked Josh's thunderstruck look, sort of dazed, sort of thrown. And I loved Leo telling him that he needed to find a candidate that he could support, and then appearing on Jimmy Smits door( don't actually know who the character is, although since he's Jimmy Smits I'm assuming he's both honest and sincere).
Not sure if Annabelle annoys me or not. Kristen Chenowith's voice makes me crazy, but the character was interesting. I'm assuming there was a disaster at any earlier press briefing? Maybe I need to catch up and see what's happening.
Although, dude, someone needs to fix Josh's hair. It's really, really unfortunate.
Then I watched Enemies Foreign and Domestic and I just love CJ, loved Sam negotiating protocol with the Russians. Loved the old man and the letter. I really do adore this show, and didn't realize how much I've missed it.
I'm cranky, PMSy, annoyed with the meds, annoyed with my body and longing to be back on the pill, tapping my watch waiting for my ovaries to go to work. Grrr. I know it's that, at least I hope so, not normally this much of an emotional rollercoaster, feelings hurt so easily by things that aren't slights, aren't anything.
Treated myself last night, needing to feel pretty again, and got my hair cut. Since my last hair adventure involved giving myself PK hair, I thought I'd stick with the Farscape theme and use Claudia Black as a model. I loved the bangs and the sleek '40's glamour of her haircut in Burbank, and I wanted something that would force me to wear my hair down, so I had my hairdresser give me sexy bangs. (Probably it looks a little more like Jennifer Aniston when she had the bangs and the wavy hair, but since it made me feel like Claudia Black, it all worked out in the end:) Hee, I'm never going to look like her, have that poise and those legs, but I can still have a damned sexy haircut. Which would be sexier if I could keep myself from brushing the bangs out of my eyes, but I think that's a hazard of the job.
I'm in the stage with the Sex Gone Wrong where it's all I can think of. Situations and dialogue and part of me realizes the absurdity of this level of effort for this kind of piece, but maybe it's a precursor. The dialogue is shaping itself, scenes and situations shaping and forming and I get that oh, god yes and want my fingers at the keys a pen in my hand because I see how it unfolds, can't write fast enough to get it on the page. Consumed because it is shaping, being shaped, and I sit back, breathless and giggling that I'm getting this from an experiment in making sex not work right, and watching it evolve. Thinking, okay, if she goes down on him here, will that work, is that appropriate to the scene. If they kiss, does it make things softer, does it make them more than friends with a new thing to do, a challenge on both sides? Snort.
And, I got the unexpected luxury of going home last night to the apartment and watching TV by myself. M. has joined a theater company and is gainfully employed and so I took my salad and my Bicyclette Syrah and watched West Wing and Law and Order SVU/Food Network and then West Wing again.
I, well, I haven't watched all season so I was a little lost, but I was sort of awed by this episode. Bartlett is so Bartlett weakened and determined and cranky, and Josh is obviously going on a quest. CJ is competent and careful and there was something amazing, and very FDRish about Curtis picking up the President and carrying him down the stairs to the car. They haven't done much with the aftereffects of the MS, and I think the challenges of a President physically hampered and mentally sound are ones that they could make good use of. Bartlett's breakdown in the bathroom, angry and wracked and doubting just killed me. And god help me, Margaret and Carol making a list of who gets to go in the bunker and including the UPS man made me giggle, especially Josh and Will trying to act like they'd be useful after an apocolypse.
I was so pleased for Donna that she quit, and even though I knew how they'd play that out, knew there'd be a temp there, I still liked Josh's thunderstruck look, sort of dazed, sort of thrown. And I loved Leo telling him that he needed to find a candidate that he could support, and then appearing on Jimmy Smits door( don't actually know who the character is, although since he's Jimmy Smits I'm assuming he's both honest and sincere).
Not sure if Annabelle annoys me or not. Kristen Chenowith's voice makes me crazy, but the character was interesting. I'm assuming there was a disaster at any earlier press briefing? Maybe I need to catch up and see what's happening.
Although, dude, someone needs to fix Josh's hair. It's really, really unfortunate.
Then I watched Enemies Foreign and Domestic and I just love CJ, loved Sam negotiating protocol with the Russians. Loved the old man and the letter. I really do adore this show, and didn't realize how much I've missed it.
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Date: 2004-12-16 06:32 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-12-16 08:24 pm (UTC)*glares at Cranky*
is there by chance a Hussy meet-up planned that I know nothing about?
*is miffed*
*still loves you mightily, but is miffed*
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Date: 2004-12-16 08:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-16 08:55 pm (UTC)*glares at Cranky*
Hey, why is this my fault? I'm not the only one with the sucky communications skills.
is there by chance a Hussy meet-up planned that I know nothing about?
Yes but not because you're not invited but because Thea, Feldman and I decided Monday morning before Thea went to work and that was kinda where the planning stage stalled out...
*is miffed*
*still loves you mightily, but is miffed*
But, but, but! IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!! *looks around* Why am I the one that gets in trouble? *pout*
hugs FBF and offers her tequila in recompense for miffedness
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Date: 2004-12-16 06:35 pm (UTC)Donna quit? really? Whyfor? And what's she gonna do? And I guess this means we WILL be getting Josh/Donna canonically.
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Date: 2004-12-16 06:48 pm (UTC)And yeah, she quit. Kept trying to make him sit down and have lunch, talk about where she was going in her job and he kept blowing her off. She said, "It's been an honor and a pleasure to work for you. I need something new." (Well, the ending was more eloquent but I don't remember). She tells him that she quit, and he doesn't believe her. We don't see her again in the episode. And Leo, not helpful, tells Josh that everyone finds new things, moves on (because Leo wants him to go hunt for the next Jed Bartlett).
The temp said she got another job, but we don't find out what it is.
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Date: 2004-12-16 07:26 pm (UTC)On a different note, I guess nothing can stay static on television shows, even though sometimes we wish we could freeze them at that perfect, oh, say, Season 2 point in time. *g* I'm not sure how I feel what's going on with WW. I dislike the melodrama of the MS story line, though it was put in place ages ago, so I suppose I can't kick that they've decided to play it out. I think there would have been plenty of drama in exploring the waning power of a lame duck president without the medical stuff, but that may just be me.
I find the jockeying for the nomination fascinating however, and they are very, very lucky to have Jimmy Smits, Gary Cole and... ack! the guy who plays Hoynes -- playing three such fascinating characters, with Josh and Will battling it out for good measure. I just hope the writing serves them all well.
I do like the idea that Leo sees the whole chessboard and is quietly enjoying watching the pieces move across it. That tickles me. Even his conversation with Josh about Donna -- "You mean Donna Moss?" -- sounded like he's 3 or 4 moves ahead of Josh on that situation too. He's still looking out for his boy, which sets things a lot more right for me than they have been in a while.
OTOH,
Kristen Chenowith's voice makes me crazy
OMG. As spokesperson for the administration? After CJ? Just... arrggh.
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Date: 2004-12-16 07:39 pm (UTC)Hee - forever in Season 2 mode, yeah. Because it is such a fabulous season of television. But I do like the risks they've taken, even if I haven't like all of the results.
I was quite surprised to enjoy last night's ep, but I found it interesting that they've shifted Bartlett's parallels to FDR instead of Clinton. And I like that:) I also like his intent to make a difference, to leave a legacy, something he's struggled with since the beginning. And yeah, love the VP's and Jimmy Smitts, that potential for strife among the party, looking for the best person for the job, not just the most likely to win. I loved the conversation with Leo about the potential success of Hoynes and the VP.
And yeah, Leo being several steps ahead of Josh is something I adored, because I love Leo and Josh being baffled is always worth watching.
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Date: 2004-12-16 09:52 pm (UTC)I'll be in Colorado, too, in a week... I can't wait to relax a bit and get a little time away from work. But I, too, am cranky and PMS-y, so I hear you there. :) Your new haircut sounds fab, though--any chance we could get some pictorial evidence?
Thoroughly enjoying the Sex Gone Wrong, BTW--much more than John and Aeryn probably are. ;) And I think it's wonderful that you're spending so long on it--one of the things I like best about your writing is that it's so well thought-out, and so true to character, even when it's "just" smut. I also love to read your thoughts about the writing process on LJ, too, so keep 'em coming, please. :)
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Date: 2004-12-16 10:06 pm (UTC)Enjoy your trip:)
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Date: 2004-12-16 11:08 pm (UTC)he was in a wheelchair (polio) and would send me to the other end of the house to get something for him. and when i returned, would send me back for something else...etc, yada. i'd growl at him and he'd growl back and then we'd collapse in laughter.
travel safely, i hope it goes well and that you get some time to yourself. i think that we should be able to get prescriptions for "time to ourselves" and "pj days". i'm just saying.
yeah writing! have fun. :)
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Date: 2004-12-16 11:10 pm (UTC)Hope you have a happy and restful holiday:)
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Date: 2004-12-16 11:49 pm (UTC)i'm planning on having a restful holiday. today a friend sent me a holiday card that said: "have a relaxing stress free holiday" and then on the inside.."or you could always visit with family".
bwhahaha!
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Date: 2004-12-17 12:02 am (UTC)Parents are supposed to be solid and whole, always the way you remember them from childhood. It's a horrible realization that they're not.
I hope you have a really good time in Colorado.
Post a pic of the new hairstyle?
Have read part of Sex Gone Wrong, looking forward to finishing.
Take care!
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Date: 2004-12-17 12:04 am (UTC)And you take care of yourself as well:)
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Date: 2004-12-18 03:07 am (UTC)Hang in there with your dad. *hugs*
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Date: 2004-12-19 06:38 pm (UTC)but, in re: the PMS, there are natural remedies that can really help. OBviously, you'll need to chat with your doctor about what you can/cannot take but I find that taking a B complex is essential to staying sane -- it prevents water build up, and helps with the mood swings. YOu might also find that taking evening primrose oil tabs will help. There are a raft of other herbal options, so let me know if you want a run down :).
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