The economy's vibrator
Feb. 23rd, 2004 01:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
itsallovernowBut I'm just doin' my part:) Bought the Farscape 4.2 DVD's and finally gave in and bought Firefly. In part because, with the announcement of Angel's cancelation, I wanted to show some genre solidarity. Hopefully, I'll get a better sense of the vision, and the fannish love, from watching the episodes in order and I'm excited to see the ones that didn't air and the ones I missed during the actual broadcast.
I often wonder why I never felt fannish enough about Buffy or Angel or even Alias to read much fic. I don't know if there's a definitive reason, I mean it's about the personal spark, and even my reasons for reading fic in X-Files and Farscape are very different.
I also bought some very cute clothing because I have no willpower whatsoever. Gah. I need to locate that willpower and lock it in a drawer. I'm not extravagent, but I know when I'm indulging myself.
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sabine101's belated birthday celebration on Saturday. I met a slew of LJ'ers whose names or monikers I know, and felt like a teeny tiny little fan in my teeny tiny little fandom:) All lovely people though and it was a pleasure to meet them.
My father has decided to start wearing his teeth when he talks to me on the phone. This is a relief. And M. is about to get bounced out of the house on his ass. I love him, but I'm so very, very tired of him. He is so wanting - wanting this, wanting that, trying to make me happy so that he'll get what he wants and I'm so very tired of it. And while it meant that I got to watch much Farscape last night, sometimes it's just not worth it.
But I'll reiterate the DVD love and say that finally getting to see the end of A Prefect Murder without the crappiness of the Adelphia feed made my angsty, shippy little heart just go pitter patter. I'm such a sucker. But it's the wordlessness, the tiny gesture of reaching out, nothing spoken, no softness, the same kind of wordless offering from Different Destinations, and it just makes me sigh and rewind, and watch it again.
Hee, and The Simpsons gave me my tagline for this week. When Lisa tells Marge that she doesn't think God responds well to threats and bullying, Marge says, "Of course he does, honey. That's how you have to talk to boys." (I'm sure I'm misquoting that, but it just made me howl:)
I often wonder why I never felt fannish enough about Buffy or Angel or even Alias to read much fic. I don't know if there's a definitive reason, I mean it's about the personal spark, and even my reasons for reading fic in X-Files and Farscape are very different.
I also bought some very cute clothing because I have no willpower whatsoever. Gah. I need to locate that willpower and lock it in a drawer. I'm not extravagent, but I know when I'm indulging myself.
Had a lovely time at
sabine101's belated birthday celebration on Saturday. I met a slew of LJ'ers whose names or monikers I know, and felt like a teeny tiny little fan in my teeny tiny little fandom:) All lovely people though and it was a pleasure to meet them.My father has decided to start wearing his teeth when he talks to me on the phone. This is a relief. And M. is about to get bounced out of the house on his ass. I love him, but I'm so very, very tired of him. He is so wanting - wanting this, wanting that, trying to make me happy so that he'll get what he wants and I'm so very tired of it. And while it meant that I got to watch much Farscape last night, sometimes it's just not worth it.
But I'll reiterate the DVD love and say that finally getting to see the end of A Prefect Murder without the crappiness of the Adelphia feed made my angsty, shippy little heart just go pitter patter. I'm such a sucker. But it's the wordlessness, the tiny gesture of reaching out, nothing spoken, no softness, the same kind of wordless offering from Different Destinations, and it just makes me sigh and rewind, and watch it again.
Hee, and The Simpsons gave me my tagline for this week. When Lisa tells Marge that she doesn't think God responds well to threats and bullying, Marge says, "Of course he does, honey. That's how you have to talk to boys." (I'm sure I'm misquoting that, but it just made me howl:)
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Date: 2004-02-23 11:37 pm (UTC)And can't make VCR work where I am housesitting, and sadly am not IN at 10 AM most days to catch it on Space. Why can't they air it in the evening? *pout*
Also, did you see my post Friday? Cuz your input would be welcome. *prod* ;)
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Date: 2004-02-23 11:50 pm (UTC)I've been playing catch up on LJ. I did read the post about you considering withdrawing from your program this morning. It's a hell of a decision to have to make, dear. But I think it's a good time to make it. I think that you're the only one who knows the balance, the way that withdrawing will weigh on you verses the benefits. I think that you've put time and effort into this process, and maybe you've gotten the things you were supposed to get out of it. The degree doesn't have to be the ultimate goal, and I think that the things you've learned are pretty invaluable, and maybe it's about the things you learned from the other elements of your life.
New prospects in the job field, doing something that would make you happier, i think those are incredibly valid reasons for withdrawing, and you know that any decision you make will be supported!!! I won't lie and say it will be easy, but I don't think you have any illusions about that either, but neither do I think that it is a negative thing to make a responsible decision about this issue, one that feels right to you. It's entirely possible that you've been pursuing this for too long for the wrong reaons, in some part, out of obligation, to yourself, to your family, to your program.
Regardless, good luck on this decision.