Lacking a Central Theme
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itsallovernowYesterday was such a writer's high, not only the SG-1 pron, but the NIP. Class has really been so much more than I expected it to be, discussionwise, and of course, now that we've really hit our strides - both novel wise and as a class and a group of critiquers for each other, it's about to end. And my teacher does actually get where my story is going, which is a relief, because I was worried that it sounded pretty but didn't say anything. (And dude, seriously, there's just nothing better than sitting in a group of people, all of whom are intensely invested in figuring out that a) the main character has a slew of guns that he needs to get from his ship to another ship down to another place and the plan involves either sneaking them onto said second ship when a bunch of other people are there or stealing the ship and b) they all want him to steal the ship because he thinks it would be a lot more fun. They are very, very bad at encouraging him to Do the Right Thing!)
Mostly, it makes me feel like this all will work out, and that someone will want to read it, but it's also coming together thematically, which, god, that's such a blessing.
I splurged and bought the latest Starburst edition because I just can't resist the commentary, and there's nothing that makes me feel quite as gooily happy as people who are really good at what they do talking about what they do in the geekiest way possible (and seriously, Ben Browder and Claudia Black mercilessly harrassing David Kemper will always be worth the price of admission because all three of them are so damned smart and sooo easily distracted and they all call each other on all sorts of ridiculous things and have so much admiration and affection for each other and it is just so much love.)
And because, in the midst of my intense Vala love, I'd been missing my girl, I realized how much I love the moment in Kansas where Aeryn takes them down into the wormhole because it's such a simple thing but it tells us so much about who she is, and where she's been. She's been watching John for long enough that she's developed her own sense of the time and patterns of the wormhole openings. And it patterns A Human Reaction (and much of this jump started in my brain because of the commentary when they talk about how it's mirrored) by Aeryn being the one to take them into the wormhold. In AHR, she's scared, she's not willing to abandon the life she is leading to go with John, but when she's afraid for him, she goes. And it's so telling of her, that she's fearless when it comes to other people. And here, she doesn't hesitate, she's got this utterly intent look on her face and as soon as the mouth opens, she steers them down effortlessly. And I love that, because in the face of all the things that are fucked up in her life, all the things that are going wrong, that she's screwing up, that John's screwing up, she's still a pilot, its the thing she'll always, always have and I just... it makes me happy.
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pdxscaper, who wanted
Five things John Crichton wanted to ask the Doctor. [as in Doctor Who, the Ninth doctor preferably]
1. How do you live with never being able to go home?
2. No, seriously, how's it bigger on the inside. Because I've met a lot of aliens, and for the most part, the laws of physics still hold.
3. If you could go back, change one thing, would you? Not history, not destruction, just a moment when you could have been a different man.
4. Why us? Why humans? How do we measure up? (Because once upon a time, John would have known this. He was the reason - wonder and vision and exploration. Innocene and intelligence and a mind wide open to possibility). What do you get from us?
5. Are we going to be all right? Not the universe, just us, my family, Moya, my grandkids if we have 'em. Did we really achieve peace or just become terrorists on a whole 'nother scale?
robynbender wanted 5 Things D'argo Will Resent (until he understands them)"
1. D'Argo finally wins at rock, paper scissors when John's really drunk and mooning after Aeryn and John throws rock when he normally throws paper and D'Argo wins and John says, "Go ahead, do what you want." All this time, it had felt like a stupid human trick, something D'Argo was never gonna win, and now he finally gets that it's the only time John feels like fates telling him he made the right choice.
2. That being captain does not mean everyone will do what he tells them to. Ever. Except for Pilot, and all of a sudden, it's not so much fun to order Pilot around. In fact, his sympathy for Pilot increases exponentially and sometimes he'll have Pilot produce random, inconvenient malfunctions that they'll blame on Moya just to keep the others out of their hair.
3. That John is always going to be the person Chiana goes to for comfort because it's about comfort, nothing else. Because they can be honest with each other in a way that's just not possible when sex is involved. That she didn't tell John about Jothee either. Because then he could have been angry at John instead of Chiana.
4. That he won't get to see John and Aeryn's child grow up. He had PLANS for that boy!!
5. That he had to share a very small ship with Grunshlik and Sikozu and that revolting man actually was able to stop the bleeding long enough for D'Argo to not die, which frell if that wasn't the surprise to end all surprises, and they're now floating out here in the middle of nowhere and the baby is going to be frelling talking by the time he finds Moya again and Chiana will have moved on and how the frell is he going to get his qualta blade back.
Mostly, it makes me feel like this all will work out, and that someone will want to read it, but it's also coming together thematically, which, god, that's such a blessing.
I splurged and bought the latest Starburst edition because I just can't resist the commentary, and there's nothing that makes me feel quite as gooily happy as people who are really good at what they do talking about what they do in the geekiest way possible (and seriously, Ben Browder and Claudia Black mercilessly harrassing David Kemper will always be worth the price of admission because all three of them are so damned smart and sooo easily distracted and they all call each other on all sorts of ridiculous things and have so much admiration and affection for each other and it is just so much love.)
And because, in the midst of my intense Vala love, I'd been missing my girl, I realized how much I love the moment in Kansas where Aeryn takes them down into the wormhole because it's such a simple thing but it tells us so much about who she is, and where she's been. She's been watching John for long enough that she's developed her own sense of the time and patterns of the wormhole openings. And it patterns A Human Reaction (and much of this jump started in my brain because of the commentary when they talk about how it's mirrored) by Aeryn being the one to take them into the wormhold. In AHR, she's scared, she's not willing to abandon the life she is leading to go with John, but when she's afraid for him, she goes. And it's so telling of her, that she's fearless when it comes to other people. And here, she doesn't hesitate, she's got this utterly intent look on her face and as soon as the mouth opens, she steers them down effortlessly. And I love that, because in the face of all the things that are fucked up in her life, all the things that are going wrong, that she's screwing up, that John's screwing up, she's still a pilot, its the thing she'll always, always have and I just... it makes me happy.
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pdxscaper, who wanted Five things John Crichton wanted to ask the Doctor. [as in Doctor Who, the Ninth doctor preferably]
1. How do you live with never being able to go home?
2. No, seriously, how's it bigger on the inside. Because I've met a lot of aliens, and for the most part, the laws of physics still hold.
3. If you could go back, change one thing, would you? Not history, not destruction, just a moment when you could have been a different man.
4. Why us? Why humans? How do we measure up? (Because once upon a time, John would have known this. He was the reason - wonder and vision and exploration. Innocene and intelligence and a mind wide open to possibility). What do you get from us?
5. Are we going to be all right? Not the universe, just us, my family, Moya, my grandkids if we have 'em. Did we really achieve peace or just become terrorists on a whole 'nother scale?
robynbender wanted 5 Things D'argo Will Resent (until he understands them)"1. D'Argo finally wins at rock, paper scissors when John's really drunk and mooning after Aeryn and John throws rock when he normally throws paper and D'Argo wins and John says, "Go ahead, do what you want." All this time, it had felt like a stupid human trick, something D'Argo was never gonna win, and now he finally gets that it's the only time John feels like fates telling him he made the right choice.
2. That being captain does not mean everyone will do what he tells them to. Ever. Except for Pilot, and all of a sudden, it's not so much fun to order Pilot around. In fact, his sympathy for Pilot increases exponentially and sometimes he'll have Pilot produce random, inconvenient malfunctions that they'll blame on Moya just to keep the others out of their hair.
3. That John is always going to be the person Chiana goes to for comfort because it's about comfort, nothing else. Because they can be honest with each other in a way that's just not possible when sex is involved. That she didn't tell John about Jothee either. Because then he could have been angry at John instead of Chiana.
4. That he won't get to see John and Aeryn's child grow up. He had PLANS for that boy!!
5. That he had to share a very small ship with Grunshlik and Sikozu and that revolting man actually was able to stop the bleeding long enough for D'Argo to not die, which frell if that wasn't the surprise to end all surprises, and they're now floating out here in the middle of nowhere and the baby is going to be frelling talking by the time he finds Moya again and Chiana will have moved on and how the frell is he going to get his qualta blade back.
