Learning Sign Language

[itsallovernow]

Still 75% deaf. It becomes less charming by the moment. I feel like I'm underwater, watching all of these things going on, but cut off from them through lack of penetrating sound. I can hear music, and I can hear my brain, and that's about it, clarity wise.

Grrr.

Because I was negligent and forgot to mention it at the beginning of the week, there's a new SMRT-TV up with the usual collection of interesting takes on the world of televsion.

My weekend looks to be work based - freelance project, finishing the Remix, snagging a beta for said Remix, working for another client. Bangs head on desk. I just want to hide until I can hear the world again.

Happy St. Patrick's Day, BTW. Wish I had anything insightful to say, fannish or otherwise, but I'm pretty self-involved at this moment. Oh, there is new Dr. Who on scifi, for those who haven't seen it yet and I highly recommend it. (If you've never seen Dr. Who, just bear in mind that the F/X are BBC quality, and therefore ludicrous and hilarious and always have been, and yet the show has always been effective anyway because the writing is sparkling and witty and Christopher Eccleston is just fabulous).

My 10th year college reunion is in June and I'm currently doing the dance of must fix everything that's wrong with my life in three months so I have something to show for the time away from my college when all my dear friends will be bringing their children and spouses and careers and houses to the bench to display, while I have a decided lack of said things. I'd love to be able to offer up something - a story sold to a magazine, a new job, a better than average ass (shut up, I'm shallow and it's college - you want to look good for those nice earnest boys that you fooled around with when you were 18), something aside from my charming personality:)

Sigh. I've officially become a sitcom cliche.

Comments

[ixchup.livejournal.com]

Thea, having lived that way most of my life, I totally sympathize. I warn you, struggling to hear will be exhausting and when you get this corrected, the startling cacaphony of sound is overwhelming. To this day I really hate wearing my hearing aids because I really love the silence. On the other hand, you are right that it does feel like you are under water or in a glass room and all you can do is watch and read lips (which I'm pretty good at).

Good luck with this. If anyone can conquer this thing creatively, I know you can. Hang in there!

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

It's just from the ear infection, and I've got so much empathy for you right now, you've no idea (and am also blushing and embarrassed because odds are this will heal itself in a week or two). Thanks hon.

[ixchup.livejournal.com]

don't blush. I figured it was temporary. But, I know your frustration and just wanted to share. I hope it is no longer painful. Just pace yourself because the exhaustion is terrible.

What is it this week with ear problems. Red is having them too. I was born with mine so I wouldn't know what happened to me if it went away. I kinda like the quiet. But I will say it is sometimes frustrating. My battery died in one aid while I was sitting waiting for Ben's presentation at Burbank and I didn't have a battery with me. So, I kept cocking my head to the right to hear him which made the guy next to me look at me all funny. Ah well. Ben was so pretty it didn't much matter.

Hope you get better soon.

[raithen.livejournal.com]

Because I was negligent and forgot to mention it at the beginning of the week, there's a new WHAT?

the suspense is KILLING me ;).

also {{healing vibes}} for your poor ears!

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Fixed.

Thanks dear.

[fancyfedora.livejournal.com]

I feel ya on the hearing loss. I'm 80% deaf in my right ear and have been this way all my life, but my left ear is perfect. It makes for interesting experiences with surround sound.

But one time, I was in a car accident where the pressure in the car ended up knocking out my hearing completely. I had to get really adept at reading lips. After a month or so, the hearing started coming back in spurts in my left ear, and I was finally back to normal after 2 months. I'm totally confident it will be all good for you, too.

Also... What's new?

[fancyfedora.livejournal.com]

Nevermind. You must'ce fixed it while I was typing the previous response. Sorry!

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Thanks!! And gah, I feel bad complaining now. This should go away eventually, it's just frustrating and a little freaky, but I've got so much sympathy for people dealing constantly with hearing loss now!

[danceswithwords.livejournal.com]

Everything is relative, I guess. Having grown up on the old Doctor Who, when I saw the Eccleston episodes, my first thought was, "Wow! The special effects are GREAT!" You couldn't actually see the duct tape on the garbage bags the monsters were made out of or anything.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

"Wow! The special effects are GREAT!" You couldn't actually see the duct tape on the garbage bags the monsters were made out of or anything.

Hee - okay, that's totally true:) But for those people who've never seen the special effects at work, it could be a shock:)

[jonquil.livejournal.com]

Here is my mantra:

Transparent apples ripen early. Northern Spys ripen late. They're both great apples for different purposes.

You don't have to be precocious to be valuable. You're allowed to succeed at your own pace. There is no cutoff after which you'll never amount to anything.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Sigh. The problem is that I was precocious until I graduated from college - I did everything first, and did everything better, and then here I am, unable to get it together in the way I want, and everyone else has surpassed me.

I know it's perspective, but I find that perspective isn't helping much when I get into this sort of panic. But thank you dear. It's still appreciated.

[jonquil.livejournal.com]

Me, too.

We obsolete precocious people need to stick together.

It was a grim moment for me when I realized all the "Rising Stars" and "Promising New Writers" competitions were for people 30 and under.

on precocity ;)

[raithen.livejournal.com]

yup. uh huh. I know.

Remember how great it felt when everyone who was popular in high school became a little less shiny as we got precocious at Uni? As academic and professional success became the measuring sticks? Well, all those folks who WEREN'T precocious then are just rubbing it in our faces now, is all, that they have it all "together." Just wait till the 20th reunion when many of them are dealing with teenagers, single parenting, bankruptcy, and we are all settled and happy and sane! ;).

I guess my point is it is all about cycles. Damn it!

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Hee:) Hugs you.

[kazbaby]

*has no idea what to say so just sending hugs and good vibes*

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Thanks hon.

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

ack, i'm sorry to hear that, i hope it improves more quickly.

and a dr. who squeeee to go with a hug just because.

you are so not a cliche, although i do think our culture's definition of success is not necessarily useful. er, hopefully that makes sense when applied to reunion conundrums.

[kerlin.livejournal.com]

Does this mean you will be in my neck of the woods in June? I'm sorry it's a cause for frustration, but I'd love to come down and see you if so!

Your thoughts on life accomplishments make me think of Harriet at the beginning of Gaudy Night, going back to Oxford and meeting all those women and finding everything so different.

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

No, sadly. Minnesota. I haven't been back to Vermont for ages.