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On the Weirdest Fannish Wagon Ever
Feb. 15th, 2008 10:06 pmThings that I would not have anticipated as of yesterday afternoon:
That I would see this week's SGA. Of course, I also didn't anticpate meeting the newest member of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
iamsab's household who is furry and sweet and giant and... learning. I anticipate Radar will be doing a great deal of learning in the coming months. ( Pleading for Ronon and Teal'c to be naked and sweating can't be a spoiler, right? )
Second thing I couldn't anticpate: that I'd develop so desperate a craving to watch the first three seasons of Buffy that I'd go to three differnt places to get them. Nor that I'd be ensconced in my bed at 10 on a Friday night, planning out which eps from the first season I wanted to see.
Crazy huh?
I can trace some of it I think. I've been unable to shake my sadness, my feelings of being stuck and trapped and useless, unable to make decisions, enact change, unable to get to the point of feeling like something good is in store, that I can make something happen, that I am more than who I feel I am right now. Not as alone as I feel. Not as...diminished, diminishing. Not unwanted. And really, despite not being a member of the Cult of Joss, there is something terribly powerful about a show about a girl, a literal girl, taking on her destiny and calling it on it's bullshit. And right now, I'm looking for a little of that nerve to kick me in my own ass.
That I would see this week's SGA. Of course, I also didn't anticpate meeting the newest member of
iamsab's household who is furry and sweet and giant and... learning. I anticipate Radar will be doing a great deal of learning in the coming months. ( Pleading for Ronon and Teal'c to be naked and sweating can't be a spoiler, right? )Second thing I couldn't anticpate: that I'd develop so desperate a craving to watch the first three seasons of Buffy that I'd go to three differnt places to get them. Nor that I'd be ensconced in my bed at 10 on a Friday night, planning out which eps from the first season I wanted to see.
Crazy huh?
I can trace some of it I think. I've been unable to shake my sadness, my feelings of being stuck and trapped and useless, unable to make decisions, enact change, unable to get to the point of feeling like something good is in store, that I can make something happen, that I am more than who I feel I am right now. Not as alone as I feel. Not as...diminished, diminishing. Not unwanted. And really, despite not being a member of the Cult of Joss, there is something terribly powerful about a show about a girl, a literal girl, taking on her destiny and calling it on it's bullshit. And right now, I'm looking for a little of that nerve to kick me in my own ass.
