Run, Run, Run for Your Lives
Apr. 30th, 2008 12:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
itsallovernowUpon arriving home last night, fighting off the residual effects of Captain Tripps which seems to be this gross hacking cough and yesterday's killer sinus headache, I discovered M. on the couch with a big, beautiful honking new MacBook Pro.
Be warned universe, M. is going digital. (Mostly what he did yesterday, as instructed, was to put all his CDs on the laptop so he could then put them on the iPhone or make playlists. I imagine this, plus the power of both YouTube and Porn on a 15 inch screen will keep him distracted for quite a while). But, I may end up having to friendslock this LJ and figure out how to filter info on Facebook if he ever does figure out how to access technology).
I'm happy for him re: this purchase. It will make things easier for him, I hope, and he's worked hard to get to this stage, but there's anger there to. That this is money he spent instead of money for a deposit on a new place. That I really am alone in moving, that my plan, that I'm chugging along with - slowly and frustratingly - really is the solution. I just... 10 years I've lived with him and he has NEVER followed through on anything we've agreed on. Not once that I can remember and maybe I'm just licking my wounds and hurting a little and feeling sorry for myself because he's also never burned the house down, but dammit, I... I'm tired of being alone in my decisions.
However, I'm off for four days tomorrow for spa with my Mom, and a Getty Villa visit, and a fancy dinner on Saturday and hopefully a little showing her off about town, which more than makes up for my momentary anger about M. and his purchase. Not my business, not my problem, I'm just going to keep plugging along.
Be warned universe, M. is going digital. (Mostly what he did yesterday, as instructed, was to put all his CDs on the laptop so he could then put them on the iPhone or make playlists. I imagine this, plus the power of both YouTube and Porn on a 15 inch screen will keep him distracted for quite a while). But, I may end up having to friendslock this LJ and figure out how to filter info on Facebook if he ever does figure out how to access technology).
I'm happy for him re: this purchase. It will make things easier for him, I hope, and he's worked hard to get to this stage, but there's anger there to. That this is money he spent instead of money for a deposit on a new place. That I really am alone in moving, that my plan, that I'm chugging along with - slowly and frustratingly - really is the solution. I just... 10 years I've lived with him and he has NEVER followed through on anything we've agreed on. Not once that I can remember and maybe I'm just licking my wounds and hurting a little and feeling sorry for myself because he's also never burned the house down, but dammit, I... I'm tired of being alone in my decisions.
However, I'm off for four days tomorrow for spa with my Mom, and a Getty Villa visit, and a fancy dinner on Saturday and hopefully a little showing her off about town, which more than makes up for my momentary anger about M. and his purchase. Not my business, not my problem, I'm just going to keep plugging along.
