Blood on the brain

[itsallovernow]

Levels still high, which means thin blood, which means I feel loopy like those things in Ozma of Oz (I think it was Ozma, and if it wasn't maybe it was the Patchwork girl) regardless, those loopy things that creeped me out that rolled themselves around, and had those smiling, vicious faces from the books' deco drawings. I don't like the spacey, low-blood sugar feeling. It makes me cranky. Makes me cranky at other people, like the boy, who I fear is not going to whether this particular storm. He wants me to need him. And, I like him, but I don't need him. I have a feeling that's just going to be the final blow. I'm okay with that. Sad, but okay.

Getting back in the swing of things. Worked on some freelance stuff this weekend, contemplated writing, but I'm not quite there yet. But I sorted out the ghost story in my head, know where it's going, know where some other things are going as well and look forward to getting back to them.

rubberneck's still writing kick ass Zombie fic, and suelac posted her not to be finished WIP and I wish she'd finish it because like all of her work, it's rich and tangible and textual and clean. But I undertand why she's not going to. I'd like someone to read the beginning of the fic, and draw inspiration from it, the distance she has John in, the disorientation and the way he filters and processes and deals. It's so beautifully done.

Our annual Halloween Show is coming up, and we've decided to actual do the "striptease" number we've choreographed with a black dress that comes away to reveal tops and low slung tight pants. It's hysterical. It means having three different costumes on that night, and C. wants us to have Halloween costumes as well, which is just not a lot of fun when you've already changed your clothes that many times, but it makes her happy, so they've decided that we'll be fairies.

Bravo keeps running this clip of John Travolta on Inside the Actor's Studio talking about Quentin Tarantino proposing a film to him to revitalize his career, and Travolta says, "He wanted me to be a vampire." Then wails, "But I don't want to be a vampire!"

That's how I feel about the fairy costume. I don't wanna be a fairy. I especially don't want to be a Halloween store I'm wearing this to show off my ass kind of fairy. If I have to do this, I want to look like an actual fairy - pretty and sparkly and petulant and a little scary, a little not human. I don't want to be polyester rigged with shoes from Hot Topic, tugging up my elasticized bustier so my breasts don't make an unwelcome appearance.

Anyone have any suggestions on accomplishing this?

Comments

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

i loved suelac's story. many layers, luscious and written with such clarity.

about the costume, is there room to propose a compromise to the decision makers? *sigh* sending you good thoughts. hope you feel better soon. *g*

now i'm going to see what rubberneck's written, thank you for the link and the rec!

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Well, compromise is something we're perfecting at this stage, so yeah. There probably is something that can be done. Problem is, I also don't want to - or have time to - sew anything:)

Thanks for the good wishes. I really am on the mend, just so bloody impatient:)

Enjoy Feldman's stuff. She's a fabulous writer.

[jenlev.livejournal.com]

i love feldmen's writing. i'm always finding myself saying what incredible writers there are hereabouts in LJ-land. it's true, really amazing, i feel lucky to have stumbled across this. :)

i don't blame you for being impatient. and chronic stuff can be so annoying....well i think so anyway having dealt with some injuries.

good luck with the costume situation. i'm just twisted enough to suggest you leave a cup of something on the back doorstep and hope the faire folk come to sew it for you. heh. sorry, i couldn't resist.

[fourteenlines.livejournal.com]

One of those long tulle tutu type skirts, colorful tights, spray gliter? Wings made of something unusual, like peacock feathers? Some sort of long, diaphanous scarf to drape over your shoulders, thus hiding the cleavage in case you do have to wear an elasticized bustier? Something for your hair, too. And some sparkly lipstick/eyeshadow, heavy rouge?

[thassalia.livejournal.com]

Hee - all excellent suggestions! I love the idea of the Peacock feathers. One of the excellent things they have on line is wings - all sorts of great wings.

Thanks babe!