Well you know, you stay awake a few extra hours obsessing about something, occasionally you hit on a few concepts that surivive the daylight.

Because when you change for yourself, the success or failure only affects you. And that's thrilling and a little disappointing, but it's more about choice, right?

Exactly. But I think connections both constrict and impel change. It's made me far more conscious of the risk, but also far more willing to surf the wave to greatest effect instead of fighting it or letting it fizzle.