Bright sunshiney day
Jul. 11th, 2003 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
itsallovernowSometimes, I look at the blue sky and the absurd palm trees ( and try not to look towards Pasadena and the yellow layer of smog) and just get a little giddy at Southern California living. My war with the sun forgotten, and the weekend stretching out in front of me like the vast miles between my home and Wyoming that I'll have to travel at the beginning of August.
While other people get to go to ScaperCon, I am going home to complete a mourning ritual. There's a lot of renewal there, a year-old niece, and my father miraculously alive, supported by people who came through for him and our family in ways I would never have thought possible, and there are few places more beautiful in the summer than western Wyoming, snuggled into the base of the Grand Tetons and the Wind River Range. But it is still about mourning, and family, and I finally bought the tickets in acceptance. Because this is definitely a journey of shoulds. And yes, I feel guilty for feeling that way, but it doesn't change the sentiment. I would do a lot not to have to go through another year like last year again, and maybe this trip will bring us all some closure.
My stepmother surprised me as well by booking motel rooms for all of us so we don't have to cram into the tiny house. It was an unexpected gesture, and after a year of turmoil between us, one that touched me.
On other random notes, I knowing I'm getting old when I consider drinking good wine and playing cribbage on my couch a fine date*g*.
Also, anyone want to/willing to do a superquick drive-by beta of my DIP? It kind of got out of hand, lengthwise (and yes, I do see all of the inherent puns in that statement:) and I need some help reeling it back in.
While other people get to go to ScaperCon, I am going home to complete a mourning ritual. There's a lot of renewal there, a year-old niece, and my father miraculously alive, supported by people who came through for him and our family in ways I would never have thought possible, and there are few places more beautiful in the summer than western Wyoming, snuggled into the base of the Grand Tetons and the Wind River Range. But it is still about mourning, and family, and I finally bought the tickets in acceptance. Because this is definitely a journey of shoulds. And yes, I feel guilty for feeling that way, but it doesn't change the sentiment. I would do a lot not to have to go through another year like last year again, and maybe this trip will bring us all some closure.
My stepmother surprised me as well by booking motel rooms for all of us so we don't have to cram into the tiny house. It was an unexpected gesture, and after a year of turmoil between us, one that touched me.
On other random notes, I knowing I'm getting old when I consider drinking good wine and playing cribbage on my couch a fine date*g*.
Also, anyone want to/willing to do a superquick drive-by beta of my DIP? It kind of got out of hand, lengthwise (and yes, I do see all of the inherent puns in that statement:) and I need some help reeling it back in.
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Date: 2003-07-11 01:42 pm (UTC)Heck, I can hardly think of a drabble, yet.
But I freely offer a armful of hugs. I hope this trip does help you renew yourself.
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Date: 2003-07-11 02:15 pm (UTC)